The day after Josh and I conducted an experiment to see if locking lips would prove mutually satisfying, I had to rise early to drive home. Not, however, without first planting a final, daylight- and sobriety-validated kiss on the sweet man’s lips, but still, I had to go. It was a weekday, and a pup and a laptop were waiting for me to start our telecommuting routine.
I cruised down I-35 with a big cup of coffee, a scone, and the familiar company of public radio. Was I hopped up on caffeine, or was the energy bubbling up inside of me something more intriguing? “What the hell,” I wondered, “did all that kissing mean?” Did he think it was a big deal? Because I was pretty sure that it was a big deal.
By the time I walked Tucker, showered, and settled in at my desk with more coffee, there was a new message from Josh in my inbox. It was entitled “Pestering e-mail #1,” and he opened with a link to this song. Um. That sounds like a big deal, right? Right?! I could try to sum up the gist of his message, but I can do better than that. And I quote:
First of all… 
That’s how I feel today (quite smiley), and I hope you feel the same. I get the sense you do, but we have been pretty successful (for years, it seems) at tiptoeing around things and I’m so glad we finally bridged that gap, as I said last night. I still feel like there might be some residual oddness for me, given that we’ve succeeded in being platonic for so long and played those roles so well, but at the risk of saying too much too soon, I will just admit that I’ve had non-platonic feelings for a long time. It was just always much easier to file them away before now, and timing seems to have changed everything. And I’m really glad it has. There is so much to talk about here, but I wanted to at least say that to begin with. I don’t regret the tiniest iota of what happened last night, and to say I’m excited about the possibilities would be a drastic understatement. I hope that it is the same for you, but I also understand that given the other stuff that you’re going through, the situation might be more complicated. But if that’s the case, I hope that’s something we can talk about.
A little heavy for a Wednesday, but heavy in a good way.
More soon…?
Josh
If the dog was a better conversationalist, I would surely have gushed and gushed. But sadly, he wasn’t much for girl talk, so I just reveled quietly in the potential of it all.
Yay! I’ve been reading your blog from the start today since I stopped over from SITS and I’m totally hooked!
You are such a great writer and your story is just so insteresting. I’m sorry your marriage didn’t work out and all but I have to admit your story makes for great reading.
I really have to stop reading and do some work now! I’ll catch up more later, looking forward to following your story from now on too.
Have a lovely day,
Jade
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oops. i should’ve read it all the way through. :]
this, this part of your story, is so incredibly lovely.
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so is interstate thirty-five as ugly to you as it is to me? because i gotta tell ya, when i’m in austin, i hate that thing. HATE it.
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[...] A Little Heavy for a Wednesday [...]
Yippee! My daughter made friends with a guy on her first day at college. After graduating, they corresponded but didn’t see each other four about 3 years. He came to visit. On the last night, they stayed awake until 4 a.m., deciding that they didn’t want to risk their friendship, and a long-distance relationship would be too difficult, so they’d keep it platonic.
Next morning he packed up for the 8-hour drive home. Without a word, he planted a big deep kiss, then jumped in the truck and drove off. It took them 36 hours to get up the courage to say, um, did you feel what I felt?
They’re married now.
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That is a great story!
That is awesome. I love it!!
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Stopping by via SITS and just read through from the beginning of your story. Subscribing so I can read the rest as you share it.
In a nutshell: as someone else who was divorced (twice!) before 30 I can immediately relate to a lot of what you’ve gone through–at least the broad strokes. Since then, though, I’ve managed to fall for an amazing man who, thankfully, feels the same and we’re quite happy together (though not married–not sure I want to go down that road again). Wishing you every happiness!
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Thanks for visiting. I’ll check out your blog, too. Glad you’ve found a “good one.”
How nice…I was divorced before 30 and then again before 40 and maybe again before 50.
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I am adding you so I can come back & read more!
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Wow, who wouldn’t like to receive such a message?
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I didn’t know that Josh had it in ‘em! That almost made me cry. Verge of tears.
And to think, you would have never gotten together if it was not for the movie Garden State. If you don’t get the reference let me know…
Totally.
Your story gives me hope! Thank you for sharing this and writing so beautifully, you are truly talented. I am so eager to see how this all pans out!
Thanks for sharing that, Em! I love your posts.
I really do save your posts so I can read three at a time- it is so much fun! I can feel the excitement and can’t wait to read more!!!
…damn dog!